135 and 135 are not the same

I did it! I hit my stretch goal of losing 61 lbs to get down to 135 pounds! I actually haven’t really been trying to lose weight these last couple of weeks but I have settled in to a groove. I’m exercising regularly and trying to eat better. I still eat a lot of sweets (don’t hate the playa, hate the game) but they fill me up and I don’t eat as much of them. Consequently, I’m still losing weight!

One thing I have noticed though is that my body does not look the same as it did when I weighed 135 before I was pregnant. It’s true what they say – pregnancy really does change your body. And in my case, having a C-Section was a major factor too. I mean, they literally cut across your abs! No wonder it’s twice as hard to tone them up!

When I was 135 lbs before, I had a flat stomach and some definition (not a 6-pack but maybe a 3 pack…). Now, I have a sort of flat stomach with no definition and instead some saggy skin. It’s kind of frustrating. Don’t get me wrong, I’m grateful to be down at this weight again and that I can wear many clothes that I couldn’t before. But, I will probably never be able to wear a bikini again or a tighter shirt because they would show the muffin top.

But you know what? Having Munchkin and a muffin top is so much better than having flat abs and no Munchkin. She is worth the moon and the stars to me – so I can live with a little extra skin.

Random Thought Wednesday

I lost 2 pounds this week! The funny thing? I have no idea how. It goes against all laws of nature. I have eaten like nobody’s business this week! I’ve had s’mores every night for dessert. Yesterday I ate my way through a goodie bag of sweets – Kit Kat, Reese’s’ PB Cup, Skittles, and M&Ms. Granted, they were the fun size ones but still, it’s not good to eat 4 of them in a row and then polish off pumpkin seeds. BUT, never-the-less, I lost 2 lbs. and no one can take that away from me!

I have to lead a workshop at work today and I’m really nervous about it. What if the computer doesn’t work? What if the attendees think it’s a waste of time? What if we go way off track and don’t get anything done? These are the thoughts going through my head. When it comes right down to it, I’m sure it will be fine. I also have to remember that not everything rests on my shoulders and in the grand scheme of things, it’s really not that big of a deal.

Tomorrow we are having a big conference for the organization that I am the president of. It’s our first all day event and we have literally been planning for it all year. There are over 100 people registered along with 5 speakers coming from all over the country. It’s pretty big. And I’m the prez. Oddly enough, I’m not nervous about it at all. This is 3 times bigger than my work even today yet I feel good about it. Maybe that’s because I know it’s been well planned whereas the work one was sort of thrown together. At any rate, tomorrow marks a huge milestone for our organization and I’m really excited about it.

I am loving this fall weather! It’s cold and rainy and I love it! Wearing warm wooly sweaters, boots and drinking warm beverages is awesome! I also get to use my seat warmers on the drive in. There’s something special about having heated buns when you arrive in to work.

Several weeks ago I was really excited for Halloween and now that it’s almost here I’m so “not in the mood”. Sorry Halloween, I think I feel a headache coming on. It’s not that I don’t like Halloween, it’s that I’ve had ZERO time to get anything ready. Between getting Munchkin’s costume ready, work, planning for tomorrow’s conference, painting the house and trying to actually sleep and stuff, I’ve had no time to get myself a costume. And as of now, I have no energy to do it in time for a party on Friday. We had some good ideas too. Who knows, maybe I’ll get inspired and throw something together. Or maybe CJ and I will just take advantage of having a sitter and go to a movie instead.

I think that’s all of my random thoughts. Well, at least the ones I’m willing to share! Have a happy hump day!

1 year later

Every year our extended family drives about 45 minutes south of Omaha to Nebraska City to pick pumpkins, get some apple cider, visit Arbor Lodge and just enjoy the small town life. Last year when we went, I was 3 weeks in to being a new mom and dealing with a brand new life. I was also desperately trying to lose the baby weight.

Here’s what I looked like then:


NE City 2009 - at about 165lbs.


I was bigger and Isabella was smaller. Here’s what we look like today:


NE City 2010 - 138 lbs


I look better, I feel better and am all around more comfortable in my skin. Today’s trip was much more relaxing than last year’s because I am settled in to my life and love every minute of it.

Happy Fall!